Totally unpredictable Thursday

And that is exactly what my thursdays are. Thursdays my only schedule is a 9-10 am violin lesson and a 6pm-9pm English class. Last night I went to bed at 10:30 with my roommate. I was in a bit of a funk because my friend clearly was miserable and I couldn't do anything. I just felt like sitting in silence. So I got out my violin and started practicing some more. Well, I wrote a song. Not an entire song but it isn't fiddle music and I wrote it with that person in mind. I think that it accurately expresses the emotion I was feeling about the situation and at the same time reflects her personality. Her birthday is coming up on sunday and so I thought that maybe I would finish writing the song and play it for her for her birthday. I grabbed her roommate for a few minutes after lunch and played what I had so far of the song for her (Both of my friends are musical). I didn't tell her why I wrote it or what my plans were with the song I just had her listen to it. And she said that she thought it sounded like her roommate. "Yes!" I thought to myself. That was exactly what I was aiming for. So I filled her in on what was going on in my head with my vision for this song and she wanted to get out her guitar and jam with me a bit.
So I spent my afternoon writing more music and fiddling around with garage band. It was quite fun.

Then I had Freshmen English, which is one of my least favorite classes. I got a seat in the back which was great because there seems to be a lot of dead time in that class and I can get other homework done at the same time if I sit in the back. So there was a really squishy arm chair back there and I set that up with three chair desks surrounding me. one faced backwards for me feet to rest on. one faced sideways for me to write on as If I were sitting in the desk-chair. The other was faced sideways on my left for my books and other arm to rest on. I felt like a queen :)
Then my teacher started the class by saying that she wanted to let us out early today. She clarified early.....8 o'clock.

"Whooo hoooo! 8'oclock!" I was thinking in my head. Well, really we ended at 7:15 and she gave us a gracious 45 minutes to complete our weekly grammar test. I got that over with fairly quickly and was out of there by 7:25. Awesome!!! I had an hour and a half of time to kill. Guess what I did with it? I wasted it on facebook.

I think my friend Erica has Fibromyalgia too. She says her mom has it and she thinks she might have it too. She has all the signs, in fact more than I do. Today at lunch she was having some crazy brain fog, a symptom of fibro (they call it fibrofog http://surfercouple.blogspot.com/2006/01/brain-fog-what-it-is-and-how-it.html). I didn't tell her that I knew what it was but I knew just how to help her out. She says I understand her better than other people. We are just very similar. I knew what she was trying to say and I knew when she couldn't find the word she was last thinking of. I could supply her with a summary of what we were talking about when her mind went blank without her feeling stupid and without her having to ask. Just set her back on track. At lunch she was rubbing the top of her thighs the same way I do. I asked her if her legs hurt or if she was just cold? She said that the tops of her thighs hurt but she wasn't sure why because doing pilates in the morning doesn't affect the tops of her thighs she says. Her knees also give out on her while she walks occasionally.
I was able to have a serious conversation with her today about that pain. I asked her if she was in pain today because I had been seing all the symptoms. She opened up a bit and told me how it just keeps getting worse the older she gets and how no one can understand what she's feeling. She told me that there are some days when she just wants to stay in bed all day and she feels so horrible but she looks fine and no one believes her. I told her that she could always talk to me about it if she wants because I totally understand all that. I understand the frusteration and pain and the not getting stuff and the wanting to sleep but never feeling rested and not being able to sleep well at night. I told her that I was on Guaifenesin to reverse it but I don't quite know how to explain it to her. I tried to tell her that there was a way to make it get better, to make it not hurt as much but she seems to dismiss it.

As far as my pain goes, my violin lesson went fine. Most of my day was fine as well however after dinner it got worse pretty rapidly. My legs muscles were spasing during English but it wasn't all that bad. Now I'm here typing and my right leg (knee on up) feels soo tight and the muscles are spasming. Its not an unbearable pain. just an uncomfortable one that makes it almost always hard to sleep. I remember this feeling from when I was younger. I knew exactly how to dull the pain enough to fall asleep. I would rub my legs against the mattress as if I were biking quickly over and over again untill they kinda went numb. I still do that to fall asleep. I realize more and more everyday how old this pain is. I would like to say that this is a new thing but it really isn't I just discovered a name for it recently. The leg pain, the knee pain, all of that I remember having to some smaller degree in 1st grade. The IBS I remember having in 8th grade on up. The brain fog, funny enough, I can't remember a certain time having that but I definitly remember forgetting things I just knew and losing focus a lot as a child.

Well, I need to finish up some homework before I head off bed a little earlier tonight. I hope everyone is enjoying their thursday night or for some of my readers early morning :)